Anonymous asked:
What happens once you kill yourself? Because I'm ready to go.
extrasad answered:
You wanna know what happens once you kill yourself? Your mother comes home from work and finds her baby dead and she screams and runs over to you and tries to get you to wake up but you won’t and she keeps screaming and shaking you and her tears are dripping onto your face and your dad hears all the screaming and runs into the room and he can’t even speak because the child that he loved and the child that he watched grow up is gone forever and finally your little sister runs into the room to see what all the fuss is about and she sees you dead. The person she looked up to and loved. The person she bragged about to her friends, the person she wanted to be just like when she grew up, the person that made her feel safe. But she’s never really going to get to grow up and smile and laugh and love because she’ll always be consumed with this feeling of missing you. And now there’s something missing from your family and they can barely look at each other anymore because everything reminds them of you but you’re gone and hurts more than anything. and you think that your mom never cared because she was always busy and yelling at you to finish your homework and clean your room and forgot to say I love you sometimes but really, she loved you more than anything and she doesn’t leave the house anymore, she can’t even get out of bed and she’s getting thinner and thinner because it’s too hard to eat. Your father had to quit his job and he doesn’t sleep anymore, every time he closes his eyes he sees his baby dead, and the image never goes away no matter how much alcohol he drinks. And at school your best friend sees that your seat is empty and she gets this sick feeling in her stomach and that’s when she hears the announcement. You killed yourself. And suddenly she’s screaming and crying in the middle of class and no one even bothers comforting because they’re all busy sitting there staring at your empty seat with tears dripping down their cheeks and all she wants is for you to hug her and tell her it’s gonna be okay like you always did, but this time, you’re not there to do it, everything is dark now that you’re gone and her grades are slipping, she barely goes to school anymore and she ended up in hospital after taking too many pills because she wanted to see you again. the girls who used to make fun of the way you dressed feel their throats get tight, they don’t talk to each other anymore, they don’t talk to anyone, they’re all in therapy trying so hard not to blame themselves but nothing works. and your teacher who always gave you a hard time stares blankly at the wall, she quits her job a few days later. And then your boyfriend hears the news and he can’t breathe, he still calls you a lot just to hear your voice and he talks to you on facebook but you never message him back, he can’t fall in love again because every girl he meets reminds him of you, he’s never going to get over you, he loved you and he cries himself to sleep every night, hating himself and slicing his skin because he couldn’t save you and he’s never going to hold you in his arms or hear you laugh again. Now everyone who knew you, whether they were a big part of your life or someone you passed in the hallway a few times a week, they carry this aching feeling around inside them because you’re gone, and they miss you, and they don’t know why you left but it must’ve been their fault and they should’ve stopped you and they should’ve told you they loved you more and that feeling is never going to go away. And so you killed yourself
but you killed everyone else around you too.
this need to be on everyone’s blog
this makes me think..
God bless whoever wrote this.
im crying
I never usually reblog things like this.. but if it saves just one persons life… please take thime to read this even if you think there is no point in living. Please.
please please PLEASE reblog this
Literally sitting on the city bus crying after reading this.
It does help
GOD LOVES YOU!!
Prayers for my best friend would be super appreciated. She has BPD and depression and has been going back and forth between a lot of meds lately, mostly due to side effects, and the side effects have been getting worse even though she got off of the meds thought to be causing them and they’ve been causing a lot of suicidal thoughts for her. She’s currently at the hospital, prayers would be really appreciated. 😔♥️
Update: she doesn’t have her phone but she’s on 72 hour inpatient psychiatric watch. If y’all could keep her and wisdom for the doctors to know what meds are best for her and her family in your prayers throughout the next few days that would be super amazing. Thank you everyone ♥️♥️♥️ prayer is powerful and effective
Update: it’s been 4-5 days and still nothing from her… I have no way to know what’s going on because I have no contact with her parents, but I do know that I would hear of anything major from either her other best friend or her brother or her college roommate because all of them would hear from her parents. Keep her in your prayers guys. 😔♥️
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Cause if i can help someone atleast I won’t have died in vain
This is so important, you all don’t even understand.
If you are reading this and feel like no on is on your side, I am. I will always be on your side. I will not be against you. I will stand by you.
Because your life fucking matters. Don’t you dare think it doesn’t.
Me: Has two big projects to work on and is feeling really stressed.
Also me: Spends hours redrawing an illustration I’ve already redrawn before. 🙄🤷🏻♀️🙃
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